This has been a rough year for me dating wise. At the beginning on the year, I was dating 3 different women. One moved away, one got serious with another guy, and things just kind of ended with one. Around that time, I met a lady that I ended up falling for pretty hard. She ended things, siting that she wasn't ready for anything serious, and promptly got into something serious.
The next lady came around right after the previous one. We went out a few times, and she pulled the fade on me. The lady after her stuck around for a bit longer, even said that she wanted to go for something long term with me. That ended up not working out. She was still hung up on her ex. We tried to remain friends, but I just had a hard time with it. I felt like she was less than honest with me.
I am still dating, but I am having a hard time going anywhere past that. I am even having a hard time being intimate with anyone, which is weird for me. In the past, when I was "hurt", I would just sleep with any lady that would get in bed with me. I don't really want to do that anymore.
I am just in a really weird place emotionally. I am lonely, but not painfully so. When I was younger, I would get in these deep depressions where I would stay awake and cry, or do things to try to cope like drinking or try to get laid. I don't even have a desire to do those things anymore. I just feel empty. Morose. I feel like the catalyst was this most recent relationship. It has gotten me down, and I am having a hard time getting back up.
